Tuesday, September 21, 2010

210910 - let's hear it for rock bottom

It's almost twelve noon and I am still in bed, still in my pyjamas.

I don't know why, but whenever I think about leaving high school I think of it as all these opportunities gone. It's like I think that as soon as high school is over, everything ends, like I have to grow up and get a job and do all those adult-like things. I don't want to grow up.
I know that when you graduate it's really opportunities being opened, but when I'm this old, it just seems like everything ends as soon as I'm out of my teens.
Yeah, it does sound stupid but it makes sense in my head.
I don't have a clue what I want to do with my life. I have a vague idea of what I want to be but that doesn't say anything, it changes all the time. Just the other day I went from wanting to be a lawyer to wanting to be a teacher to wanting to work in hospitality.
Really, all I want to be is an author, but I know how hard it is to get into that and I honestly can not see myself getting published-there are so many better writers out there.
But anyway..

I think my eyes have gotten worse. They keep going blurry like they have sleep in them twenty-four seven. I probably just need new glasses but I am sick of my glasses as is. I always leave them in the bathroom accidentally and then someone goes for a shower and I'll have to wait for them to get out before my eyes stop eating themselves.
By the way, it is now 2:10 PM and I have listened to Straight To DVD soundtrack twice, taken a shower and played about seven thousand games of solitaire since I started writing this update.

I am so bored. My boyfriend went on holidays. Why does everyone have a life but me? Hey, that's okay, I'll just eat a popper with a spoon and play Sims. You guys suck.

Solitaire statistics:
Games played: 966
Games won: 395
Win percentage: 40% (oh my gosh, finally!)

Random question:
Can you make a cake?
Yes. If you give me the ingredients and instructions. It's really not that hard, I could do it on my own, but my mother insists that I am stupid and cannot work a mixer by myself.

Sorry for the lame question, I got twelve hours sleep last night and I'm still majorly tired. What is this?


  1. Oh my god, you play Sims?
    Which part do you have. I didn't think it was something special so the first part I ever got was the first part, but now I only play it when I'm bored. :)

  2. i LOVE sims!
    i have sims 2 if thats what you mean, and it is the most special thing ever :)